I'm going to change my life

Ok.  Here we go.  I'm going to change my life.  My families lives.  We can do this.  I can do this.  My health and the health of my family are my number one priorities.  This is my focus for the rest of this year.  I need to put aside everything else and focus on this one hundred percent.  Yes.  I can do this.  Even though I have a six month old who will not be put down.  Even though I am homeschooling a preschooler and a kindergartener.  Even though I don't have a house cleaner or a chef or someone to do the laundry.  Even though I am subsisting on about 5 broken hours of sleep a night and I cannot even have a cup of coffee.  I'm going to invest in a new slew of addictive iPad apps for the big boys, strap the howling baby on my back, and make this work.   If someone asks me to take on a project, organize a party, join a new club, read a new book.... I'm probably going to say no.  Maybe later.  Because this I'M GOING TO FINALLY FEEL GOOD thing is going to work! 

I am going to take all the knowledge that I have accumulated over the last six years of health obsessed research and somehow pull it to the surface of my brain and allow myself to use it with confidence to HEAL myself and allow all of us to reach a new level of health and vitality.  Foods, supplements, holistic medicine like herbs, homeopathy and essential oils.  Every book I've read, every recipe I've wished to try, it's all coming together right now. 

I will not accept failure as an option.  I will not be ashamed or embarrassed or uncomfortable discussing my new lifestyle with family or friends who may not agree or understand. I will say no each and every time I am offered something that does not fit in my healing plan, and I will walk away from people and situations that do not support my goal.  Sounds harsh.  But this has always been one of the hardest things for me.  I like to please people.  I like to fit in.  But I will stand in the spotlight with beet red cheeks if I have to because I want to get well. 

My goals:
1. For me to follow the autoimmune paleo protocol without cheating, while nursing the baby and feeding my family healthy whole foods.  To eliminate my sugar cravings, anxiety issues, and constant upset stomach.  To feel healthy and alive. 

2. To transition my kids (who are already gluten free) from a standard american gf diet to a whole (real) foods paleo-ish lifestyle that includes tons of fresh veggies and high quality proteins, learning where food comes from and helping to grow it, learning to cook with me in the kitchen, and learning to listen to their bodies regarding the food choices they make.

3. To make cultured foods (kefir, kombucha, cultured veggies) a part of our lifestyle and include them in our daily meals.  I miss making water kefir and sauerkraut - time to get back to it and expand this area to include lots of other fermented foods. 

4. To spend time outside with my kids every single day.  For them and I to get exercise every single day even if it's just walking, biking around the block or yoga I do in the house. 

I could write a lot more goals but I think I need to stop here and keep it simple-ish.  I go overboard way too easily.  You know... like I decide to start a new blog about my paleo journey. :)